There are lots of times that I really want to cry but I can't. I have told myself that I need to be brave and that I always have to compose myself because crying wouldn't do any good. I have once consulted a friend and asked for advice. I didn't tell her everything because if I did, I don't think that she could handle. I know because when I was in the middle of my story, she couldn't believe herself that I'm going through this huge problem. She told me that I always appear to everyone as if everything is fine; that everything is okie. She asked me how was I able to afford to share my smiles, my laugther with people despite the fact that I'm carrying this huge baggage. What she didn't know and that I couldn't say, if that I have a secret weapon. This weapon gives me the strenght to live on and put a smile on my face even the world is turning its back on me. And that weapon is my mommy.


I don't know about your mother. But for me, I believe that my mom is wonderwoman. She's the type of person that could break walls and could stop the rain if she needs to. I don't have to really describe her because all of the mother factors that one child is searching for, she has it. The family problem that we have right now would surely break any mother's heart. I know that her heart is breaking but she's apprently strong enough to stand for us. She's incredible. I want to be like her because her spirit never fails to uplift us. Her strength is so contagious as if we don't have this "situation". That's what she calls every problem..a situation. She told us that every problem has answers you just have to find it out.I love her so much. I just pray that we could get over this one.